Today (that is, yesterday at sun-down till today at sun-down) was the first day of the last fall feast. I have begun a new study about healing broken hearts. It has been anything but "normal", but that would describe the spiritual road I have been on for the last 12 -13 years. This feast points to something that we look forward to in the millennial reign. To tabernacle with God forever, the deposit or guarantee of which is the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. I have been looking forward to what God will show during this "appointed" time or season. A special time that God has appointed for us to draw near to Him.
Starting this blog was a lark, that was spurred on by a friend starting a blog. The last post she had was about Proverbs 3:5-6, verses that I have been encouraging my nephew to memorize. Of course, when you help a child memorize verses, you learn as well. Leaning on my own understanding is something that I have been brought face to face with many times over the last few months.
I am sure that many people can relate to the winding road that you go down as God leads you. It is a straight path, but only He could link all the seemingly unrelated pieces together. Case in point, how do "healing the heart", Proverbs 3, and Mud Pie Dreams link together? Well, best I can tell at this point, all the years of pretending I didn't want children, because I just could not get pregnant, has produced a wound in my heart. I denied a miscarriage years before out of pride and fear. I went through the whole ordeal denying it all the way. I leaned on my own understanding. The price of my pride and sin has taken a toll on my heart. The hurt, the tears, the pain, the anger, have built a wall around my heart, and God is bringing the consequences into focus.
Today is the beginning of something new. One thin layer of hard scales is being removed and the heart of stone is becoming a heart of flesh. I look forward to all that He is going to do. However, it is a bit scary too. Fear of the unknown should have no place when God is leading. He will never leave us or forsake us but, in honesty, I have not reached the point where there is no fear. I know He will heal that too, and perhaps it will be soon.
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